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Wednesday, August 19th, 2009
10:53 am - What's Your Word?
Your Word is "Love"
You see life as possibility to form deep connections with a few people.
Relationships are the center of your world, and you always take time to bond with those you love.

You are caring and giving. You enjoy helping those you love.
And when it comes to romantic love, you feel passionately ... even in a very long term relationship.

Ok, I think that´s me! And yes I´m still living, somehow....between problems with me teeth and my ear.....but I´m still standing! YeAh,yeah,yeah!

current mood: restless

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Saturday, December 6th, 2008
3:38 pm - View of the past week
Last week was very, very busy, but also sometimes good, sometimes bad (that´s life!)

I was able to make a cat happy, which I cat-sitted for some days, meet up with a friend and had some really fun at the christmas-market ( and really big troubles to get awake the next morning ;-) ).

And the most important thing, I´ll see my beloved and lovely [info]kennahijja again, after months only phoning! Yeah!!!!! Happy dancing around.

Yesterday I bought a wonderful christmas-tree, Santa is already trying to reach my balcony ( and the kids of the neighbourhood love this decoration :-)) and tonight I´ll have a nice hot spiced wine and some cookies.

The not so good things are: It´s busy like hell (in my office and private)and yesterday I lost a part of one of my tooth. So I´ll have to see my dentist...and I really, really hate this!

please send some good thoughts at Tuesday!

hope you all have a wonderful weekend and a peaceful Christmas-time.

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Friday, October 3rd, 2008
8:43 pm - I have an egg
ok, Kenna infected me.
I got an dragon-egg and need some help with it!

Morefrom me the next days!

Adopt one today!

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Thursday, May 15th, 2008
8:54 am - Happy Birthday teh Cat!
Today is a special day! I take care for a special cat for the rest of the week and today it´s her 13th birthday!
Happy birthday ro you and a lot of tuna tonight!

current mood: cheerful

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Monday, April 28th, 2008
10:14 am - This and that
Sorry for my silence, but I´m reading a lot here and writing not so much :( .
Life is busy as always, but in an almost good way. Yesterday we visited a huge park in Schwetzingen with a dear friend of mine. We had lovely weather (sun, a little wind, not too hot), a great lunch with fresh asparagus (delicious!) and some baroque green and a lot of english style green ( trees, lakes and bowling greens).
And one painted and two stone owls.....;-)

Today I´ll move to Kenna´s home and live a whole week with a very lovely cat. My poor allergy ;-).
And I´ll be happy after the instruction I´ll get from Kenna´s parents tonight......;-)

Hope to sleep a little bit more the next nights... At the moment I do all the thinking during the time I should sleep....especially the thinking about a special male person in GB. Not so good at all. ;-( Especially I can´t really do anything about the situation, so I should really quit the thinking and wait patiently......

Oh good news about the friendship I whined last time. I really quit it and I´m now feeling good. It wasn´t easy at all and I had several weeks a really bad feeling about it, but now it´s like someone took a whole mountain away from me.

And how are you today?

current mood: creative

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Monday, November 26th, 2007
6:00 pm - Damned
Why are some friendship so complicated and some others are like chocolate. Smooth and very good tasting! Sometimes I wished to be a man ...really!
I don´t understand it....ok stop rambling, tell the story...

I friend of mine was this evening able to tell me, that she is so hurt because I need some time for me. I tried to tell her that she wasn´t the reason for my doing and that she shouldn´t see everything as personal thing, but she isn´t able to understand.
And the worse of all is that I´m feeling now really bad and could cry ... I really hate it to be so whiny, especially because it´s not even this time in month.

It seems that I´m afraid to hurt her and therefore I let she hurts me. Ridiculous...
She is a person who tells you what to wear, she has to know what is going on in your life and so on. That´s not me and I really don´t want to be controlled by another person....Have anyone some suggestions, what to do?

current mood: sad

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Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
4:04 pm
Sorry for my delay. It was a rough time the last weeks and it seems, that some of my friends have hard times too.
To tell a long story the short way... I´m feeling better day by day, it´s not everything dark and against me any longer.
I´m seeing a rainbow out of my window in this moment and I recognizing, that I can smile again (ok a little bit pathetic, but I really saw a rainbow seconds before I wrote this....really beautiful).

What´s new: I´m learning to say no, without having second thoughts and the feeling I have to say yes to everyone and everything.

I´m going to lease a car and drive ...after 15 years not doing it. I´m really excited and happy to be more flexible. Our Train- and bus-system is really horrible! No wonder if nobody use it, high prizes and bus-driver who didn´t care if you´re alive when you excited the bus or not. It will be a smart, blue silver if I have a choice, smile!

I´m learning to select some of my friendships...I really love to have friends and to spend energy, time and money into a friendship, no problem, if it´s a two way thing. If not, I´m very sorry, life is too short to have troubles with your friends. And it´s a no-go, that a friend of mine blaming me, that I - who was the person feeling really bad, sad and everything,- didn´t call her every day and therefore she became depressiv - sorry?!? I didn´t get this thought!
Sometimes you can´t speak about things and that should respect a true friend!

I miss my friends from the UK. I really would like to see them this year, but it´s seems that this will be a wish and won´t happen, sadly enough.

My best friend moved away and I really miss her. Gladly we chat almost everday and I know she´s ok and busy. And next Halloween I´ll visit her nice town, I´m coming hihihi.

ok, that´s all for the moment. Hope you´re well today.

current mood: okay

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Tuesday, August 7th, 2007
4:39 pm
Got it, got it, done!!!!!!! I finished HP:DH. And I don´t like very much that the persons who were killed were these special persons. (ok, nobody understand this sentence but I hope you know what I mean ;-))) ) Because I don´t want to spoil somebody and I didn´t understand until know how to make a shortcut.....so I´m speaking in secrets.

Today was a notice in the local newspaper about the death of my colleague. It doesn´t help to understand the whole thng. Her father visited her office some weeks ago and was happy because there should be only one therapy left and than she could try to go to work again. Finally it was a thing of two or three days... she got pneumonia and died at saturday. It´s a strange(at least to say) feeling to know you can´t see her again, even if you thought that she was one of my first trainees I was responsible all of my own. This May she celebrated her 30th birthday.

current mood: sad

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Friday, August 3rd, 2007
10:16 am - Electronics and other things
I don´t know, I washed my hands, clean my clothes bit there must be something. Last Friday my computer in my office broke down. At Monday this week a very nice young man visited my office and repaired it. It was the main board, so no energy was able to get to the important places. My fotos are safe....so the world was ok.
This morning I tried to make a call from my home and my phone there decided to play chipmunk, the display showed stripes and more stripes. No numbers, no signs, nothing.

So I´m asking myself what is this week with me and the electronic things?

Oh, btw no I´m noz finished reading HP:DH, but I read already over the half....so please no spoilers! Hope to finish the book this weekend.

How are you?


current mood: curious

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Friday, July 27th, 2007
9:45 am - I hate computers
This morning is really a great one.
After dancing around spoilers since Saturday....(thank you very much amazon...I appreciate it that you gave me my copy of HP on MOnday!) I try to read so fast as possible. After a very nice evening with two of my friends with mexican cuisine and actually two cocktails - one of it showed me how old I am - I ordered a Martini - James Bond style - and the young man looked at me like I´m Voldemort himself. Note to myself - don´t mention classic movies to people who are twenty years younger! I only mention PoC three - the scene where the music of "Once upon a time in the west" was played kennahijja and myself were laughing our heads of, but the rest of the cinema looked like blind and deaf moles.

Ok, after returning to home at 11 in the evening, I read some pages HP - now gladly on page 120, looked a little bit sheepish during the reading because some things happened I joked about some times ago and then went to sleep. Tired like hell I entered this morning at a quarter past seven the office, switch the coffee-maker on, switch the computer on, waited, switch the computer on, and on and on....nothing, nothing at all. My pc decided between yesterday evening and today´s morning to quit! Not funny especially because I have some things on "C" I would be very upset to loose! GRRRRRRR!

Now I´m sitting in front of the pc from a colleague of mine, having only the basic functions and love it really. I want back in my bed and do more reading!

Hope you all have a great weekend!

How are you today?

current mood: frustrated

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Wednesday, April 18th, 2007
11:10 am
Hello, I´m back again... not only back from London - what a great time - meeting so many great people (you know I mean you!) but also from the troubles and worries (thank god).

I want to say a big thank you to all the friends who helped me, listened to my worries and questions, you helped me so much! (Big HUg).

Meanwhile nothing really new around here. A friend of mine will move "around" May into her new flat so I´ll get some furniture around this time for my guestroom. I´m curious if the moving will really be in May and this year or next. Ok, that wasn´t fair, but she bought a flat from a guy who is building a house for him and his family ....I think I mustn´t tell more...about dates in the building business. So we wait and see.

I cleaned my balcony around the easter break and some of the seeds showing a first leave in green. It´s so beautiful! I really would like to sit more outside. But the time is my enemy at the moment.

Oh before I forgot.....yes I fixed the friendship..it was really hard work, because it´s not easy to say hey, I really love you but there is a big problem and we have to solve it, but it worked!!!! I´m so glad about that.

SO , return to work.

Enjoy your day!

current mood: busy

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Friday, March 23rd, 2007
11:43 am - I´m buying a christmas tree
Hello ,

can anybody perhaps help me. I need a christmas tree, but can´t find one. All our shops are going crazy....selling some painted eggs and some rabbits during christmas-time....instead of the real important stuff!

No, I´m not going crazy, even if this week was really a week to go nuts.(It seems that a very deep friendship will end in a very stressful and hurting way, because a friend of mine showed me very clear, that our friendship means for him not very much at all. After several years of knowing each other and (so thought I, trusting each other too), he gave me a call on Wednesday and was more than willing to quit this relation). Please don´t ask me to explain this whole thing, I really can´t understand the whole mess and I´m not sure that I really ever knew this guy.

Today I thought I was dreaming, my window showed me wonderful (sarcastic grin) white snow all around, something around 5 cm. You can only guess where a street could be. Everything is white, wet and cold. AARRGGHH

I´m really looking so forward to go to London again......you can´t imagine how.

Hope you´re all alright..

current mood: depressed

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Thursday, February 1st, 2007
10:03 am
Nothing really big happened since my last entry. In my office the crazy peolpe called colleagues are running around as usual, some friends of mine, working here too, fighting like me to stay sane and not going mad in a second....so business like usual.

Last Friday evening I met some friends of mine and it was a georgous night. I should do such things more often!

At the moment I´m watching the fog and the rain outside and wish I could return to my bed. Instead I have to help a person, who starts with a really not so easy kind of work, should write several letters and so on...... I think I´ll visit a friend at first ...she baked some muffins.....


current mood: groggy

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Thursday, January 25th, 2007
9:25 am
I didn´t mean it as I said let it snow! Since two days the snow is falling without a break and the chaos is here.
It´s really funny, during the christmas days were no snow around but precisely one month after christmas evening our whole city is white and the weather is very cold. Our weather god is not so sure with his important dates.

After recognising that our roof isn´t so leak-proofed - I have snow in my room under the roof - I hope it will be cold for a while so that I can clean the whole mess as snow and not as water! Perhaps I´ll build a snowman with it and store him in the fridge ;-)))

How are you?

current mood: indifferent

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Thursday, January 11th, 2007
4:36 pm
Did I say, this year will be better than last year? Ok, if I must correct my self. Yesterday I had an emergency call from a friend of mine. His mother is very ill, is in the hospital and It looks not very good. So I ran to Stuttgart, helped him to get a little bit grounded, searched for a train, wrapped his luggage and brought him to the station. During all this I tried to give him some strange and support. ... That wasn´t funny at all. I was done after the train left the station.

Today I had a not so nice conversation with my mum at the phone, in my office is research-work to do but I can´t find the right law for my problem and my friend isn´t calling at all. The employee of my banque attested that she sometimes really doesn´t know what she does - but it´s not her fault, nobody told her what is right and what is wrong - I mean , that nobody knows there what to do --- that really inspired confidence! Hey, they have my money!

And the special agency for giving hints what restaurants we should book for our trip to London in May gave us plenty of names, but as addresse they only wrote "south Kensington" or so. Very fine that I can use the internet in my office!

If anybody have the suggestion that I´m a little bit stressed - yes that´s definitely so! I think I will write to the big boss of my office and ask for a special sound proofed room, where I can scream once a day. I think that could be very helpful!

Hope your day was better than mine!

current mood: groggy

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Monday, January 8th, 2007
2:50 pm - Happy New Year ...too late?
It´s really funny.....today is one of the days you realized how funny sometimes people, especially colleagues are. Our building is not so small, we have eleven storeys. So you can imagine how often you some people see during a year. But everybody is more than eager to wish a Happy New Year to you. I, a good little girl as I am, answer with "the same to you" and wonder who the hell this guy was and if I know him or not.
Really strange day...tonight I slept not very well, dreamt about a special guy - we were standing in a kitchen and washing salad - now I´m sitting at my desk I struggle with the sleep. Strange, very strange... I try to have some more sleep tonight, after booking the flight to London for kennahijja and doing some research for the London trip in May.
Can you imagine, the lady from the travel-agency is desperate because she doesn´t know the whole programme for the London trip already. We have only 5 months left .....so panic! You must know, they allow only 25 people in a group (good thing!) and normally the tour is fully booked within two days. But as I say - now have some panic! (OK now I´m busy to jump around and scream loudly - please come and visit me in my new room in the madhouse ;-))) )

How are you?

current mood: tired

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Friday, December 22nd, 2006
10:07 am
Lesson learned. Never whine about a lack of work. After writing tht yesterday everybody thought, ok, now send work to her....bloody f....,
it´s the last working day, so have mercy please!

No, it´s not so bad as it sounds, but I´m a little bit angry about the behaviour of some colleagues of mine. I´m saying it since ages: Please feel free and come to me, if you plan to do some shopping for the office, I can help. But no, after the chaos has started then they are standing next to me(really close and I like that very much - thanks!) in my office and whining for help! AAARRRGGHHH.

(Don´t understand me wrong, I really like to be near to persons I like and I like to be hugged and hug back.....but I will decide who that persons are and will be - and definitely most of my colleagues are not enclosed in this special group of human beings!)

How are you and must you work tomorrow?

current mood: but not too much

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Thursday, December 21st, 2006
10:08 am - Finished
Yesterday I finished my papers. I worked on it for over 4 weeks. Done! So I must find some little work for today and tomorrow, but I think I´ll manage that.

Yesterday we tried to set my christmas tree up....the tree is to small and the holder is to big....I think I´ll pronounce the tree as an art-object and than it´s ok ;-))))). Because standing straight is slightly different.

At the moment I have some wishes for Christmas

Peace, health and luck for my friends and family, a little bit of snow and some sleep, sleep and some more sleep for me.

Wish you all a Merry Christmas!!!

current mood: tired

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Monday, December 18th, 2006
3:16 pm - London, christmas and meeting friends
Last week I visited London for two days. Meeting my friends there and *my* actor. It was so great to see all the people which make myself feel good. Talking about people, god, christmas decorations and carols and all was so much fun.... and watching someone very special singing was really prizeless .... giggle.

Hope everybody is well and have not so much stress like me, with searching around for my christmas presents....no I bought most of all weeks ago, but where was the place I put it?

I really apologize to kennahijja for yesterday. Sorry dear, but you called during my most stressed moment of the day. Please feel free to use my puter as you like.

A good time for you all!

current mood: and a little bit guilty

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Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006
9:38 am - OH NOOOO!
Sometimes I really doubt god, the world and a special calendar of a special man in GB. (ARGHHHH and sigh at the same moment). How shall I manage to book I flight, a hotel room and convince my boss to say ok for some days free (ok, I have no holiday left but that would be only one problem ;-) ) and that during one day! SO I won´t go to London and won´t get a birthday-hug......sometimes the world sucks!!! (sigh)

current mood: frustrated

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